I couldn't sleep, that is normal for me now and I accept it - why because my son Richard who was 32 died on March 15th of this year. He had kidney cancer and it was growing quietly in his body that by the time he was diagnosed it was too late. I was looking for comfort -also a norm these days - I typed in 'how to cope with the lost of a loved one' and this website popped up. I read your diary, thank you from the bottom of my heart because now I know that we share a common bond - the trauma, the anger, the searching are all part of our process of grieving. It does't make it go away but because you have allowed access into your personal grief thoughts it has helped me greatly. I don't know if I have the strength to start a website just yet but I want to. Bless your family for comforting me, Susanne...